explains simply that he had lost hope of attaining his idealistic goals.Īlthough Sensei does not receive any blame, he feels as though he has killed his friend.

The night before the day he planned to apologize to K., Sensei wakes up to find that his friend has killed himself. One day he discovers that Okusan has already told K., who has not changed visibly. for a few days, and all the while Sensei is tormented by the guilt of having spited his friend and not knowing how to reveal the news to him. Okusan gives her approval, and then Ojosan too consents however, the matter is not revealed to K. meant he was going to pursue his love, Sensei makes a desperate move and asks Okusan to marry Ojosan. K takes the blow very heavily and mutters some ominous words about his still being able to will himself to do something. Fearful of losing Ojosan to K., whom he considers his superior as a rival, Sensei sadistically takes the opportunity to quote K.'s own words from their argument in the summer against him as an accusation of being irresolute and hypocritical. is torn between his strict Buddhist idealism and his love. brings up the matter again and speaks of his emotional anguish as Sensei intuits, K. A few days later, while walking in a park, K. confesses to him that he is passionately in love with Ojosan. And so, he is almost paralyzed with shock when K. Nevertheless, Sensei remains satisfied by his friend's serious and disinterested demeanor that at worst it is only Ojosan who holds affection for K. and Ojosan talking alone in K.'s room more often, sees them walking together outside one day, and finds them teaming up against him during a card game. Following their return to Tokyo, a succession of incidents intensify Sensei's jealousy: he notices K. arguing strenuously for his ideal of a principled, ascetic life, while Sensei complains that K. The two remain somewhat distant from each other for most of the trip, but after a visit to the shrine of a famous Buddhist saint, the two have a confrontation, K.

leave Tokyo to travel together in the Boshu province. does open up, but Sensei becomes tormented by jealousy when he happens upon K. out of his stern studying and humanize him, Sensei brings him into conversations with Okusan and Ojosan.

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